1. Doing mainstream gives you an equal, almost inversely proportional, amount of thrill and novelty. I remember Bebe and I agreeing that although we tend to long for expressing whatever artistic potential that we conceal with madness, it will and always will be marginalized by our selfless and patriotic longing for pure and complex entertainment. Simplified, we just want to make a difference by making people's brains pop out of their heads through a medium we want to call film.
2. When you receive a "See you soon" note from the only local director that you sincerely, genuinely admire and you get tummy butterflies, you are delusional. Of course, you'll see her soon, WTF are you thinking?
3. When you forget all the standards that you imposed on yourself to somehow up your status, it means you're growing up. Most significantly, if it involves catering to those whom you thought were just beansuckers and eating three meals with the most bizaare people.
4. When you project to the future and see yourself in the exact place, it means you're gonna be helluva happy. If you can see yourself working in the same holistic environment with the same well-rounded group of people, all things considered.
5. When you rehearse a certain actor for take and you stutter because you secretly have this whopping crush on him deep down your own jologs self, do not fret coz it's fucking normal. Alas another gay semiotic in a semi-socially-relevant entry.
Anyway, that's all I got. I seriously need to GTFO of LJ and put my groggy ass to bed. Good night! :)