There's not much happening lately, aside from the random spontaneous karaoke sleepovers at Cheska's, pool parties with her and Ajin, and the job offer I've been waiting for for days. I realized I should start experimenting on whatever career path I want to take as early as now because for one, I will definitely spend less and less time at school next sem since I only got Thesis and PI. The excessive amount of idle time resulting to that will drive me nuts, so what I've been thinking of constantly now, is to wait for Tuesday and see where this plan will take me. Everything is still so vague.

Another thing, my thesis pre-prod is going at a snail's pace. All I've been trying to do is settle finances, talking to my father and working on sponsorship letters. I need to have a mini-grant or whatever since I'll be asking for just half of what I need from my parents and that kind of freaks me out. Without that job, I don't think I could earn enough to cover the other half so I'm really counting on the solicits. Anyway, I hope Raymond Lee replies over at FB with Pepe Smith's contact number. It's either him or major compromise and I hate to do that this early. My crew list is pretty sort out so that gives me something to look forward to, besides the Pepe Smith factor.

I really wish a lot would happen in May, both for my film and this shithole of a career I'm desperate to jumpstart. Please wish me luck!

Why do I still give a damn fuck about this show? The God is such a crackwhore. I hate hate hate your large chunk of an ass Tyra Banks. London Levi pwns you, your talk show, and your black preachy mumma combined.

There’s this thing we have to write on our blogs for Artstud 174 (pop art and culture in the Philippines) because we’re cool and postmodern like that. We were given five questions and basically what we have to do is choose one, blog our answers and send Ma’am the url of our posts through her Facebook account. How cool and uncomplicated would that be? The good thing here and the most important thing I like about this homework is that we could write in whichever way we want just as long as it’s generally understandable and does not discriminate based on language.

So the topic is the internet and the specific topic that I opted to write about is how revolutionary it has become. If you know me well and if you basically get the gist of all my posts, I am normally self-absorbed. I chose this topic because for one, I know I have a lot to say and reflect on, since I have been using the web for quite some time already. Just like anyone of you out there, it is emotionally impossible for me to exist without it since I have grown accustomed to release all my inhibitions, all my stress, everything that does not naturally exit my body, through my blog, through Yahoo! Messenger and my social networking accounts. It’s like hardcore paranoia during weeks without being able to check my email or even my lj. It’s crazy.

Now of course, I could start and lecture you on how big it has become in terms of its effect on politics, education, media, etc but you probably know all these things already. I do not specifically know what we mean by “how revolutionary” because answering it in the simplest of terms would just be stupidly stating the obvious. The internet has reached the farthest limits of what we thought were impossible. The world was connected in a snap, or if you’re a fan of plate tectonics, reconnected through the advent of email and chatting, among others.

For one, I am quite sure that Obama wouldn’t be president without his massive online support troops and Sarah Palin wouldn’t be quite as popular as she was if not for the MILF comments on gossip sites and the funny GIFs of her face on a bikini body. There’s also this thing we call Youtube where generally no copyright laws prevail, and where infringers continually reign. There’s Facebook where you could effortlessly be friends with Tyra Banks and Twitter where you could exchange life changing status updates with Tina Fey. Wikipedia, on the other hand, is every plagiarist’s heaven. Multiply is where you post pictures, buy underwear, and voice out political agenda all at the same time. These websites are not just a thing we do after a day’s work, or something we check when we have idle time, they have become a part of our routine. We skip meals just to check if we have comments or if anyone favorited any of our posts.  I mean for instance, it’s just a week before the finals and I have a minimum of 40 facebook status updates from friends and classmates ranting over papers and exams in a span of three to four hours. For people as technologically-reliant as most of us are, I don’t think there’s a word strong enough to describe how alarming this change has been. It’s any word beyond neurosis.

 The good thing despite all these is the fact that most people are hypocrites. We babble and rant during our day classes about web-reliance and we resent copyright infringement. We hate irrelevant gossip sites and American trash and commercialism. We listen to Rage Against the Machine and we even call for the return of mobs from the cyberspace back to the streets, but what we do first thing when we go home is check our Superpoke pets and watch Lady Gaga on Youtube. I guess the point of this whole hypocrisy is that sometimes our generation is like that, we idealize and speak more than what we know. This for me illustrates more how revolutionary the internet has become. More than being manipulative and narcotizing, it has vicariously subverted the way people think – from appreciating technology and using it to our advantage, it made us self-unreflective and in denial.  The moment we accept the fact that we are indeed being controlled not by the capitalists and the perpetrators of media-concentrated truths, but our own addictive selves, is the time that we understand and maybe try a little bit of self-regulation.

But just like what riot_house  said in a previous post, at least man, we’re still alive. That just sums all this shit up.</lj>